Change, or not to change...

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves...

Mungkir Bahagia

Ooo..
Dihimpit dicengkam rindu ini
Gerimis dukaku
Menggamit kenangan silam
Resah dan pilu menghampiri

Sunyinya malamku kelam
Pedih kemelut cinta
Dingin kelu bicara
untuk mengungkap rindu

Sayangku mungkir pada kejujuranmu
Menolak segala bahagia di hadapanku
Kasihku mungkir pada kata janjiku
Berlari aku jauh dari cintamu
Kukesali

Dihanyut dilambung ombak lara
Sepiku berkelana
Melayari jiwa nestapa
Menggagahi rasa kesayuan

Leburlah harapan cinta
Namun kesetiaanmu
Kugenggam bagai hukuman
Mengheret langkahku

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta kita berakhir
Maafkan daku
Kerna ku memungkirinya

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta jadi begini
Maafkan daku
Ku mungkir bahagia

Who Are You?

The Machinist opens up with credits while we hear a struggling Trevor Reznik (Christian Bale) trying to roll up something in a carpet, most likely a body. He drives his truck near a dam and does indeed have a body to dispose of. He hurries when someone starts to come closer, holding a flashlight. He pushes the body down, but the carpet starts to unravel, and we assume we will see the body. Just then, the man with the flashlight catches up to him and says, "Who are you?"

Stevie: Are you okay?
Trevor Reznik: Don't I look okay?
Stevie: If you were any thinner, you wouldn't exist.

In The Name Of Love

Aku wanita yang punya cinta di hati
Ada dirimu dan dirinya dalam hidupku
Mengapa terlambat cintamu telah termiliki
Sedang diriku dengan dia tak begitu cinta

Mengapa yang lain bisa
Mendua dengan mudahnya
Namun kita terbelenggu
Dalam ikatan tanpa cinta

Atas nama cinta
Hati ini tak mungkin terbagi
Sampai nanti bila aku mati
Cinta ini hanya untuk engkau
Atas nama cinta
Kurelakan jalanku merana
Asal engkau akhirnya denganku
Kubersumpah atas nama cinta

Mengapa yang lain bisa
Mendua dengan mudahnya
Namun kita terbelenggu
Dalam ikatan tanpa cinta

Andai Dapat Ku Undur Masa

Dalam usikku merajuk seketika
Laluku pergi meninggalkan dirimu
Tanpa ku duga
Lilin menjadi bara
Gurauanku jadi dilema prasangka

Kau menyangka aku pergi kerna dia
Yang tak pernah wujud dalam alam cinta
Belum sempat ku jernihkan suasana
Engkau pula yang hilang
Entah ke mana

Puas sudah ku mencari
Ku tinggalkan pesan
Ku kirimkan berita
Agar dapatku temui dirimu
Umpama sebutir permata yang sirna

Andai dapat
Ku undurkan putaran dunia
Inginku ubah semula kata
Dan tingkahlakumu yang salah
Agar kita dapat seiring
Di mercu asmara

Tak ingin lagi
Dan tak mahu lagi berpisah
Bukan dengan kerelaan hati
Penyesalan yang tiada kesudahan
Ku tersepit dalam jerat sendiri

Here With Me

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me

I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

A Good Material For Another Book

Long long time ago, when I started to write, I used to stay awake late at night...and turned on the radio. This was the kind of the songs they played on the radio at that time (might still be true today). And I would write and write...till it was three am...No worries, its not Another Sad Love Song. Guess, it was just something not too noisy to keep u awake.

Hold My Hand

I hear the flower’s kinda crying loud
The breeze’s sound in sad
Oh no
Tell me when did we become,
So cold and empty inside
Lost a way long time ago
Did we really turn out blind
We don’t see that we keep hurting each other no
All we do is just fight

Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

Children seem like they’ve lost their smile
On the new blooded playgrounds
Oh no
How could we ignore , heartbreaking crying sounds
And we’re still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stopped feeling all the pain because
Like it’s a daily basic affair

Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

No matter how far I might be
I’m always gonne be your neighbor
There’s only one small planet where to be
So I’m always gonna be your neighbor
We cannot hide, we can’t deny
That we’re always gonna be neighbors
You’re neighbor, my neighbor
We’re neighbors

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

A Thousand Miles

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

Mafia State III

This is the BIG news during Muslim celebration in Malaysia. Banting seem to be in the Mafia list also.

BANTING (Sept 12, 2010): Cosmetic millionaire Datuk Sosilawati Lawiya, 47, and three others have been murdered and their bodies burnt and ashes strewn at a river near Ladang Gadong, in Tanjong Sepat, hear here, police said.
Bukit Aman CID director Datuk Seri Mohd Bakri Zinin said however that police still needed the forensic confirmation to fully ascertain the matter.
He was speaking at a news conference at Banting police headquarters here.

Three others were Sosilawati's driver Kamaruddin Shamsudin, 44, CIMB Kampung Baru bank officer Noorhisham Mohammad, 38, and her personal lawyer Ahmad Kamil Abdul Karim, 32.

They were reported missing since Aug 30 after going here for a land purchase deal.


Earlier, a police forensic team arrived at the farm in Tanjong Sepat near here around noon, bringing with them two men in lock-up attire, believed to be among those picked up in connection with the disappearance of Sosilawati and three others.

The media, who were at the entrance of the Ladang Gadong integrated farm, saw two convoys of police cars entering the site with at least two men in lock-up attire inside.

A policeman said they were taken to a site about 100m from the main road, believed to be part of the investigations into the disappearance of Sosilawati, the founder of Nouvelle Visages (NV) cosmetic line.

The forensic team had also gone to a restaurant about four kilometres from the scene as part of the investigations into the case.

Police helicopters were seen hovering over the area.

Incoming Inspector-General of Police Tan Sri Ismail Omar told reporters in Kuala Lumpur that police believed they would be able to solve the case swiftly following the arrest of at least four men.

He declined to reveal the identities of suspects although there were speculations that two of them were lawyers.

A relative of Sosilawati when met at the millionaire's home in Gombak said police contacted them this afternoon on the likelihood that the millionaire's remains had been found in Tanjong Sepat.

"But they will have to carry a DNA test to confirm it," he said.

Sosilawati's ex-husband known only as Buhari was seen entering the house at about 12.30pm.

Sosilawati and the three others were reported missing nearly two weeks ago after coming here for a land purchase deal.

A week later, police found Sosilawati's BMW at Angsana Apartment in USJ 1, Subang Jaya and the BMW of Ahmad Kamil at a housing estate in front of a hotel in Subang Jaya. -- Bernama

Veteran Communist Fighter Denied Pension

Veteran communist fighter Captain Mukhtiar Singh regards his years in the police and army with a mixture of pride and indignation — pride because he fought fearlessly, and indignation because, despite the sacrifices, he has been denied his rightful pension.

In 1948, Mukthtiar, 16, was like many teenagers his age. He studied hard at Batu Road School in Kuala Lumpur and helped his grandfather with chores. To earn extra money, he worked part-time as a night watchman.

Mukhtiar’s parents, who were farmers in Punjab, had sent their eldest child at the age of four to Malaya to get an education. The outbreak of the Emergency, however, changed everything as he was drafted into the police force.

“When the Emergency started, the management of the company I was working for took all the watchmen to the Campbell Police Station and gave us a rifle and 100 rounds of ammunition. We were made Special Constables but we did not know how to use the weapons as we had no training,’’ he recalls.

In 1950, Mukthiar received a telegram that his mother was seriously ill. He left for India but she died before he could see her. A heart-broken Mukthiar returned to Malaya hoping to continue his studies. His dreams were dashed, however, when he was forced to take up arms again.

“I was riding my bicycle when my English boss, Mr Swan, at Wilkinson Process Rubber Company in Ipoh Road, stopped me and asked me to rejoin the police. I told him I wanted to study. However, he informed the OCPD of Kepong of my return. I was told to rejoin the police force or be sent for national service in Kulai, Johor,” says Mukthiar, who was soon made a Special Constable again.

Still wanting to leave, he started reporting sick in the hope that he would eventually be discharged. However, he was told that he would end up in the lock-up if he continued to shirk his duties. That proved to be a turning point for Mukthiar because, from then on, he embraced his fate and devoted himself to the police force, quickly rising up the ranks.

Mukhtiar was made temporary inspector in 1954 and led a 36-man platoon, the Police Special Squad Group Number 4, to two Selangor Battle Defensive Shields. To get the shield, platoons were awarded points based on the number of communists killed or captured and weapons seized. A dead communist earned the highest points: 25

Read more at TheStar.

Waktu Tak Terasa, Rindu Tak Terkata (Asyik)

Dengan bahasa
kalimah yang sama
Puji dan memuja
Dilindung dan dibuka
Rahsiakan tetap rahsia

Indah bukan rupa
Harum bukan bunga
Manis bukan gula
Panas bukannya bara
Cintakan tetap cinta

Sejak aku kenali
Cintamu yang suci
Aku telah berjanji
Tak berpaling lagi

Akan aku genggam api
Hingga jadi besi
Dan nyata sebati

Gelap bukan malam
Terang bukan siang
Satu tak terbilang
Hanyut tak terenang
Waktu tak terasa
Rindu tak terkata
Asyiknya cinta

Dan hanya kepadamu
Kuserah jiwa ragaku
Walau berjuta seteru
Tak kuragu